Another Messed Up Dream...

So last night I had a very weird dream that I hope I never have again...

Travis and I were enrolled at a college somewhere and we went there for our first day (to set up our dorms and get settled in) with a group of people that were supposedly our friends, but I did not know these people in real life.

There were a couple slutty girls there that flirted with Travis and I think he was flattered but didn't get with them. Just wanted to hang with all our new friends. I felt kinda like he lost interest in hanging out with me while we were all trying to get into the college scene.

Well there was this weird girl there that sent me like a list of things she wanted to do to me. It was scary and weird and before I found the list I had a weird feeling just seeing her. We never talked, but I saw her on the street as we were getting out stuff out of our van and into the dorms. She didn't look too clean. She looked pretty in the face but her hair and clothes showed as if she had been sleeping on the streets for a while or something.

Well the list was like a list she kinda put in my head. Like I could read her thoughts. I wrote it down on paper but she had put the thoughts there. Thoughts about wanting to rape me and then kill me. I had images of sitting in my dark dorm alone and seeing her sit outside my door through the crack at the bottom. She just sat there and softly asked me to let her in. But not in a nice voice. It was more of a scary "I want to kill you" voice. Other than that at nights, she stayed at a distance but always had an eye on me.

Well a couple days into being at the college she came up to our group while we were sitting on a play set on campus (don't ask me why there was one cause I don't know lol) and offered to sell us some coke. OBVIOUSLY we told her that we did not do that and she kind of glared at me but mostly glared at Travis.

Travis laughed with some of the boys in our group and then kept talking with them all like nothing happened. This is when I got a really scared feeling in my stomach like my life was in danger and I walked over to him and asked if I could talk to him about something important. He got kinda irritated with me which crushed me, and walked away to class with the rest of the gang. I followed but looked back at the girl who was glaring so furiously at me, it sent shivers down my spine.

Then a couple days past and I was sitting with everyone at a long table in a dark lit room at our school. We were all trying to figure out this paper we were supposed to be writting and analyzing. I asked someone for help just as the huge doors of the room closed and were locked shut.

The weird, scared feeling came back and I looked around for Travis. He still brushed me off, till we smelt smoke. Everyone started to panic as the big room filled with it. I grabbed Travis and demanded that he talked to me and that I knew we were in danger. He just kinda went numb and stared off into space, confused.

I grabbed his hand and ran towards the door as a small group of students managed to get it open. We slid through the cracks of the open doors and started running down the long hallways and staircases. I tried explaining to Travis that someone was out to get us and kill us and that I had been trying to tell him this for weeks but he didn't say anything.

We weren't walking fast enough so I jumped on his back and we started running faster. But along one of the hallways, there was the girl, glaring still but in tears. Her face turned even more evil and she started shouting at Travis to stop. I could tell that she wanted him dead and that she tried killing us by locking us in that room that was filling with smoke. She would have killed all of those people just to kill us.

I screamed back and asked her why would she want to kill both of us. What did we do wrong to her? We didn't know her!

That is when she started to try and hurt us herself. But she was more focused on Travis. She got a gun and started shooting but only wanted to hit him in the head. I shielded it with my arms and body as I was still on his back and started crying. She stopped shooting, not wanting to hit me.

Then she started crying more. I asked her why she was doing this and she started bawling. She said that she loved me and she wanted to be with me but I was Travis' and he didn't even seem like he cared about me. Like, because he was getting into the spirit of college and wasn't listening to me when I was trying to warn him of danger or anything, he didn't want me. And she wanted to kill him so that she could show me the affection that she thought I needed.

I looked down and looked into Travis' sad face. I can't remember if he was crying or not but he was sad. He looked up at me and I could feel his love. I could feel his sadness from him realizing that he had been ignoring me and that he felt bad that I felt like that and that that's how it appeared to not just me but some random girl.

I don't remember what happened to the girl or the rest of the dream. I do know that I felt a huge relief off my shoulders and an overwhelming sense of love from him once again. I woke up, still tense from the nightmare, but feeling good about things.

I know he loves me, and I hope he never forgets that too. <3