TATTOO ADDICTION!!! :)

So June 2011 I got my first tattoo and I fell in love with them! It's true what they say, they ARE addicting.

Now I also believe that bigger is better (when it comes to tattoos) and intend on getting many many more. I got my last of five last July and am in desperate need of a new one already!

As all of my loved ones know, I am obsessed with Panic! at the disco and have been since 2006. I want to get a huge tattoo dedicated to all my favorite songs and just the theme of the band. If you don't already know, they're an alternative band that is pretty unique. That's probably why I like them so much (besides the fact that I'm in love with the lead singer, Brendon Urie ;))

My last tattoo is one of their quotes. It's not where I wanted to get my bigger tattoo for the band, but it fits me well so I put it on my arm. I love it!

Alright so I've gotten a little off track lol but I wanted to share with everyone my next tattoo idea. And by everyone I mean me myself and I. Via the internet... No one reads this crap lol

Anyyywayyyys....

So last year I had a lot of problems and though I have always struggled with depression, it seemed to spiral out of control for a couple months. I hit rock bottom and flew off the edge. I tried to take my life a couple times which was dumb but my boyfriend came along and showed me that there is some value in my life.

I am a lot better now and I wanted to get a tattoo to reflect that. There is another band I really loved called "The spill canvas" and one of their songs was just the thing I need. I love them and their lyrics really help me a lot. I know thats kind of cliche but it's true.

The lyric is "And now I'm content with my breath, Cause I"m alive"

Life is something that you need to cherish but you have to find that on your own time. Although my family and friends were always there for me and I hurt them a lot that I could not listen when they told me not to kill myself, I now know that it just wasn't my time to listen.

Obviously I never succeeded at my attempts, but I AM alive. The only difference between back then and last year is that it was finally my time to see and realize what was there all along. I now value my life and even if my boyfriend was gone, I think I could find a light to live on. I hope that never happens because I am truely in love with him but even if it did, it wouldn't kill me :)

So F anyone who bitches that people's tattoos don't have meaning. Just because you cannot see it, doesn't mean it doesn't mean anything to them.

That is all :) <3

Did you know...

I have only really slept with two pillows in my life. One when I was little that had little hot air balloons on it and was covered in old nose bleed blood lol Gross. And another that is shaped like a cat that I've had for probably about ten years now?

I am terrified of natural cracks in things. Like when a liquid such as soft scrub, dries and gets all cracked. I'm afraid of those. 

Holes in walls and floors creep me out. 

When I was little I had hazel eyes that changed all the time but since about the time I went to high school my eyes have stayed green, which is my favorite eye color over all. 

I am 21 and still afraid of the dark.

I used to be able to watch anything on TV or any scary movie without getting freaked out until 2010 after I went through a bad break up. Now I'm scared of most everything.

I am slightly dyslexic with numbers.

I had my lip pierced for 4 months in 2010.

I have 5 tattoos.

I used to never cry and bottled everything inside me until it exploded but now I cry too much and cannot keep my feelings inside very long.

Driving scares the crap out of me. I took drivers ed when I was 16, waited till I was 18 to get my license and rarely drive since. 

I've had two pet mice. One was my favorite, her name was Moo cause she was white with black spots.

I have probably 5 unused Facebooks floating around some where.

I have a tooth on the roof of my mouth because I never got it taken out as a child and my other teeth pushed it out of the line.      

       I have never weighed over 98 lbs.

I am literally five foot nothing.

My favorite color is Mint Green

I like girls possibly more than I like boys. 

My longest relationship before Travis was five months (three times). Going on 1 year next month!!!!!

I taught myself how to roller blade when I was nine-ish to a cassette tape of Les Miserables.

 I have major anxiety and depression problems that I've struggled with for most of my life.

 I have a compulsive need to pick at my lips. I'm trying to break that habit.

 I can't roll my R's.

 I wore glasses from 3rd grade to 8th grade when I finally stopped wearing them.      

I write short stories that have strong morals and a death in each one. 

I am deathly afraid of the movie James and the Giant Peach.

I sleep with my makeup on.

I don't like lake water or any big body of water.

I can't really swim.  

I have never had an iPod or i-anything before my boyfriend got me an ipod this Christmas.

I listen to three broadway plays.

I have really only had a handful of best friends my whole life.

I don't like the color purple.

I'm naturally a dirty blond.

I have colored my hair literally every color I can possibly think of.

This was harder than I thought it would be lol. I'm a pretty open person when it comes to things like this so if you really know me you will probably know all of these lol. But it was fun for the time being. I know I'm missing something but oh well. I'll look at it more later :)